I am not a thing. I am a man. I am a human being. I have feelings and emotions.
My car is a car. I start it and it drives the same all the time. I have it serviced, put gas in it, check the tires, I look after it. But it is still a car and feels the same to drive all the time, it is the same day after day.
I don’t feel the same all the time, because I am a human being. Often I expect the same high performance day after day. On the Camino some days I walked 20km, on others I walked more, and very occasionally I walked less. I accepted very quickly that I was always going forward I accepted less quickly that it was not always at the pace I wanted.
If I exercise I have more energy, if I exercise too much I have less energy. If I eat I feel well, after eating some food or eating too much I can feel tired and low. If I listen to myself I stay on the right path, if I listen too much I become morose and self obsessed.
Thank you. You have described me to a “T.” I had no idea.